The Smallest Gifts

     At Christmas time we are all surrounded by the busy hustle and bustle of our world. we are consumed in the pressure of giving the best gifts and receiving exactly what we have asked people for.
    This year i was thrown for one of the biggest curves i believe life has ever thrown me. decisions were made quickly and effects were felt almost instantaneously. because my parents have been divorced since i was two it is a custom for me to receive two Christmas' every year, but this year due to changes in relationships i only had one Christmas. these past four days have honestly changed my life. i have had to chose the people that are really in my life to better my being, and although i know that my decisions have hurt people i also know that there decisions have hurt me.
   Christmas eve i got to see my dad's side of the family that i haven't seen in years, and one of my aunts gave me a quilt that my great aunt ruby had hand made. it meant so much to me that she would want to give me this small piece of my heritage. i have more then enough cousin's on that side but she chose to give it to me.
   the gift that i gave to my mom was a small bracelet in a small blue box with a silver ribbon that also contained a letter that i had written to her the night before. in the letter i told her how thankful i am for her in my life and how grateful i am that she was standing by me when i stood up for myself in these past few days. while my mom read the short letter she burst into streams of tears which sent me into a flood of them.
    i knew that my mom wasn't crying because of the bracelet i gave her she was crying because she knows that i love her and that's really what we are trying to tell people when we give them gifts. that we love them.
   i got exactly what i wanted this Christmas but that isn't what's important. what's important is that i know now that i know that i have surrounded myself with people that truly care about me and the smallest gifts are the one's that can impact people lives the most.

this one is for my mom.
you are the best mom i could ever ask for. thank you for always loving and doing what best for me. even when i don't deserve it and even when it's not what i want. i love you.

its always the little things.

Jess